I have a long standing ill-fated, unattractive relationship with the month November. This year alone I wrote two blog posts on it (can be read here and here if so inclined), and I’m still not sure how I faired.
Then there was NaNoWriMo and my own foolish ambition. I wish I was one of those people who had a well-crafted gracious loser face.
Alas, I am not. As the end of November, and NaNo, flew toward me like a wrecking ball, I had already accepted certain NaNo defeat. It looked a lot like this, only not as adorable.
But I was. Or I didn’t write 50,000 words I wrote 30,000 and some change. I didn’t heave a heavy sigh of regret, or gleam with pride, but merely carried on in an almost stoic way. I could have cheated. I have over 50,000 words on the manuscript I was working on for NaNo.
I could have lied and won and be sharing my pretty banner of winning right now instead. But I took the high road. And I thought of my fellow NaNoer’s, and my CPs who were all doing this with me, and I said no to cheating. It looked a lot like this, only crazier.
So I managed to enjoy Thanksgiving, even though my head was full of snot and I just wanted to drink some whiskey and go to bed. I contemplated how I could have won NaNo, what I will try to do next year (and probably won’t because the best laid plans…) and how, ultimately it’s just fine.
Acceptance is the first step to recovery. Hey, I still wrote 30,000 words in less than a month. There really should be a “participation” award with NaNo. Maybe a giant banner that says, You’re good, just not good enough! and then in the corner Proud NaNoWriMo loser, 2013.
As for What’s Up this Wednesday* with me, a whole lot of pacing myself and blowing my nose.
What I’m Reading: Finished The Burning Sky by Sherry Thomas, and ended up loving it way more than I anticipated from the first fifty pages. It took me a while to get into this one, but it was worth the investment. Also, Prince Titus. Yes. I just started Rainbow Rowell’s Fangirl, and oh my holy mind-meld this book mirrors my late-adolescent self in a very real way and embarrassing way. All those who insisted I read Rainbow Rowell, I give you a well-deserved salute.
What I’m Writing: Wrote my first words of December yesterday, and they felt good. Went back and read through notes and pages from November, constructing a plan to finish this novel in the next month or so. I need workable pages for my Djerassi Retreat in February, so no more slacking! I also began work on a feature length Screenplay. It feels really good to write in this medium again, especially after NaNo. The story is not something I could produce myself, and not fantasy, and not at all what I normally write. Did I mention it feels really good?
What Inspires Me: At the risk of sounding like an asshole, myself. (I’m gonna let that stew for a minute.)
Ok. When I say myself I mean fangirls and boys. People invested in the many varied Fandoms available. People who understand the need to relate to one another through fantasy. This is helped along by Fangirl, and by the screenplay I’m writing, and because all my favorite people are fans.
What Else I’m Up To: Being sick. Cleaning up from hosting Thanksgiving. Decorating for Christmas. Reading to my son. It’s December guys, lets go wassailing.
*What’s Up Wednesday is a weekly meme geared toward readers and writers, allowing us to touch base with blog friends and let them know what’s up. Should you wish to join us, you will find the link widget at the bottom of Jaime’s blog.